[bright lights and danger]

[...and back and forth for hours, but in the end I know that it really doesn't matter what I do. In any case I need the money for tomorrow, so if I don't make it to the party, I'll still need to drive out in the dark, get onto the freeway and get to the Caltex where there's an ATM. Bright lights and danger, I think. I could die so easily out there. But I know that it really doesn't matter what I do, if I do]